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Stress and Failure and Peace and Victory in Kinshasa

11 June, 2010

Do not fret because of evil men
or be envious of those who do wrong;
for like the grass they will soon wither,
like green plants they will soon die away.

Trust in the LORD and do good;
dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture.
Delight yourself in the LORD
and he will give you the desires of your heart.

Commit your way to the LORD;
trust in him and he will do this:
He will make your righteousness shine like the dawn,
the justice of your cause like the noonday sun.

Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him;
do not fret when men succeed in their ways,
when they carry out their wicked schemes.

Refrain from anger and turn from wrath;
do not fret—it leads only to evil.

For evil men will be cut off,
but those who hope in the LORD will inherit the land.

A little while, and the wicked will be no more;
though you look for them, they will not be found.

But the meek will inherit the land
and enjoy great peace.

The wicked plot against the righteous
and gnash their teeth at them;

but the Lord laughs at the wicked,
for he knows their day is coming.

Psalm 37.1-13

Oh how I desperately fail to uphold the characteristics this passage exhorts the children of God to maintain.  When the “authorities” of this country devise their wicked schemes, my first and sometimes only reaction is anger. Wrath. Evil.

Pray for me, that when the police hold me in their chains of corruption, that the meekness of Christ will break my sinful heart of stone, and turn it in to the godly heart of flesh, flowing with the blood of Christ.

Pray for me, that I would be so confident in the Lord’s vengeance being His own that I would not even begin to try to take that vengeance for myself, as “it only leads to evil.”

Pray for me, as this certainly means many more stressful hours in the corrupt pits of Kinshasan government (they call them bureaus).

Pray for God’s name to be glorified through the most stressful situations.  That I would have strength of mind, strength of faith, to maintain a meek, peaceful heart when all kinds of evils are schemed for the soul purpose of making me give in to corruption.

God will be exalted among the nations; God will be exalted in the earth. (Ps 64)

Pray for me to be still when all I want to do is tremble in wrath and anger.  Pray for me to know that He is God.

The victory over a corrupt social system has been won.  The victory over racism has been won.

Most importantly the victory over my evil nature has been won.

Lord forgive me for my sin.  Help me to love when the only natural thing to do is hate.

2 Comments leave one →
  1. 11 June, 2010 23:43

    friend… I understand this position all too well. I have felt much the same way as I have had to handle some of the absurdity here. consider yourself prayed for…

  2. Becky H. permalink
    14 June, 2010 03:05

    Alan, praying for you and trusting in Him to provide exactly what you need. May He be glorified. I’m sorry that you are frustrated.

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